Here I am crying.. I haven't cried in over a month.. maybe two.. Well.. no I have cried since I moved here.. but that was quiet a while ago...
I was a fool not to listen.. I was such a fool. I should have just listened to her.. and close myself off.. I should have just pushed them away.. but.. I thought I could trust them.. I thought they were friends.. yet.. tonight.. I feel strangely betrayed.. I don't know why.. Maybe Sabes was right.. and I am an attendtion whore.. that when some one is there to pat my back.. I sulk.. and whine... I don't know why.. but.. I really do feel betrayed.. They don't notice though.. they don't notice my saddness.. they don't even ask.. I should have listened.. I should have just pulled myself away and ignore the emotions that were slowly coming back to me.. why did they have to wake up.. why did they have to come back... I wish.. I don't know.. I just want to stop crying....
Even though I mentioned my journal.. they won't look at it.. and even if they did.. they wouldn't comment.. they wouldn't care.. why didn't I listen?
 Neduls · Sat Feb 19, 2005 @ 03:10am · 0 Comments |
