Within these walls lays an empty soul, one with no room at all. You may ask how it came to be but life is just full of tempestry. I stand here all day long and know how you are feeling. I look at myself and feel the greaving. My soul it hurts from all the pain that I put on and masked away. I'm full of life at times it seems but when I sense something wrong with these beings I drift away and crawl into my empty soul, my place to hide, my deepest hole. It comes with time you'll understand how my life ran without a plan. I forced myself to be so glad and now I find that I am sad. I sit here now no comfort found, no room to glow and keep me round. I drift away and in my heart it turns to ice before we part. I kept it secret I kept it hid, but now I must bid you well far away from my id. Where life lays dorment at my feet, no soul to tread on those who weeped. I find it hard to stay alive, I feel so dead in my eyes. It lurks like poison to my soul and all that loved me know I've told. To love someone is hard enough but to give it up is just as rough. I find my tears to be so bland, they taste like sandpaper in my hand. It makes me feel so sick to see all those people who are just like me. And even though I loved you more than life itself, I think that I must truly wait till I myself fall from hate. It hurts to say the words I must but life just keeps on going without my trust. I feel so dead and so alive I've felt so useless and so benign. When will I feel so simple inside? When will I find all the pride of life's great plan that is in store? I found it now again once more. It was in you it gave me strength to move along and bare the teeth of injustice and pain. To find some common ground with God, to wipe my tears and just move on. The life I led seemed so full of hate but now it's like I just can't wait. I hear you now ever so softly. I see you now ever so lofty but it is fine I'll be alright, I'll walk with pride and fill my light with happiness to guide me on, my life has reached a brand new dawn. It wasn't far for me to see but all I needed was your sympathy. So now I sit in that same room and look around at all the gloom, that once filled me with oppression now it lets me feel for my heaven. A piece of you will always be with me for eternity, no matter where the road may turn I'll always know that you still yearn. So just be patient, just be still, behind closed doors I'll sit until you come to save me from my hell. That wraps this world in shadows of darkness and cleaves to me from inners farthest. I know it's strange to hear these words but all that's been said is still to be heard.
Inspiration can take you to strange places and when you let your hands do the talking all things true come out and fall without warning. This poem is like my transendence from being down to being up. I know most of you will be like what the hell?? and others may read into it too deeply. I beg of you not to. I hate it when people try to dig deeper into the soul of others long since gone. It seems like a violation of some sorts. To me my life just started three years ago when I moved to Cali. I felt as if I had just woken up from a nightmare. My life has changed so much and so has my attitude toward life. But it really is the people that I know that have really shaped me. Melded me into who I am and what I want to be. I'm a writer that has the passion and potential to do great things. Life should be lived like the day is neverending. Savored till the last second of time. It has become apparent to me that life gives me so much and I don't give much back to life. So to do so I write and imagine a world of beauty, one that surpasses the soul of immortality. I have so much to share with the world and so little time. It makes me happy that I can make someone smile and feel better about themselves when I take the time to care. So this is for all of the people that I love and care the most about, you are never alone when you are in the darkest of darkest times, I'll always be there.
SuperKunt Community Member 
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