Why does s**t always happen. Why is there always difficulties when I'm around people...
Mood: crying
Currently Doing: Thinking too much
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Ok so um... Things that are bothering me.
Sarah leaving gaia.
What I'm thinking ((What if I don't ever get to talk to sarah again.))
Other thoughts.
Today in general.
People ignoring me... Friends who don't even notice me.
Conflicts that happen currently that is off the computer...
My friend Casey (who is my ex.) *I'll explain further in the message
My grandfathers health depleting to nothingness.
My mom and dad's fighting and bickering.
Constant thoughts on hurting myself.
Ok the problems with my friend Casey. Why I kinda hate this is quite simple... I know she doesn't like me all too well but she does talk to me. That is on AIM anyways... Ok to the point really, since if I probably didn't talk to her then it would be different. Anyways... Talks consisting with her is usually a long silences and then the words "i'm bored", I try and ask if she wants to do something like say go to the movies or something, go cruising around the area... or something, then she says that she doesn't want to. Or it's always "Matt this" or "Matt that" Ok I don't really like Matt, but I could never say that to her =/ Ok so anyways she's usually it's long silences and then boredom and don't want to do anything or Matt this... Oh yeah and i can't forget that Matt's making a movie... and guess what... Casey is in it @-@
Ok so I have a bit on my mind and I shouldn't have all that much nor should I be up at this time, but I can't fall asleep. Since I've been crying in bed for an hour and can't fall asleep I decided to get up and write this.
I miss Sarah cry
Ok now I guess I'll go and try and cry myself to sleep for the first time in 5 months.
 Scratch and Sniff · Wed Oct 06, 2004 @ 10:35am · 3 Comments |
