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I am pissed.. no you know what pissed isnt even the word for how mad i am right now, not only have i found out my friend just totally decided to instead of going to the movies with my friend to instead go to some valentines dance wiht her ex... Yeah that really pissess me off and not only that but the girl i like doesn't tell me that she doesnt like me but instead says " you have a chance" You know when you ask for the truth i at least tell you and dont divert what im saying with "um's" or the whole " maybe i dont know now" stuff So you know what ******** you too.. i dont care anymore bad enough ******** school is going valentines day crazy witht he whole " oh i got candy flowers and thankyou ect" ******** hell people just ******** do it somewhere else and be happy someowhere else. there are two kinds of moods at school today happy, and sad.. but some people like me go to angry. WHAT A ******** GREEEEAT WEEK THIS GETS TO BE im just gonna stop showing up to our ******** meetings now that i have no purpose other than to have someone think im so stupid i cant figure out when they are talking about ******** it... I dont need pity i dont need any new friends i just want somone to at least have enough respect for my own well being to tell me the truth instead of making me constantly ask the whole " what if" question. s**t ya know i want to yell out loud and just scream right now but i cant bad enough that i preety much dont except my family but now my friends aren't even doing anything for me but make me feel worse. Why do i ******** bother i try to help people but that never gets me anywhere. If anybody tries to tell me " oh my love life is horrible blah blah blah" im going to straight tell them try not having one!!! TRY NEVER HAVING ONE AND ONLY HAVING A CHANCE WITH GIRLS YOU DONT LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus christ... ******** you too god why do you constantly seem to make me fall for girls that don't love me back... and why do you day in and day out make my day ******** worse.....
Oh well, god knows what im going to do now and an apology wont EVER make up for this so dont even try.... this whole week has been bouncing from angry, to sad, to just feeling like s**t..... ********....... I HATE YOU ALL ******** WORLD>> I HATE YOU GOD< AND I JUST ******** HATE PEOPLE THE WORLD COULD EXPLODE AND I REALLY DONT CARE!!!!