I'm feeling really down today. Even though I got up early and worked out with friends some things occured to me during that time that made me feel bad about myself.
For one thing I have been working out for awhile now and my friend and I have been checking our weight every time we go. I haven't lost any weight, and my friend has lost around 20 pounds. I do notice things shifting around though. But nothing in numbers.
Another thing is that my friends were ragging on me to get a job or volunteer and such. I don't know if this is the right thing for me to do in the first place. In my family my brother and I have a deal with our parents, we work during the summer and go to school all during the school year. I know we have a long break though. I don't know what I should do really and it kind of irritates me the pressure that keeps being put on me to do something different than I am doing now even though I know a lot of people are trying to help.
Especially with all the things that are going on in my life. I read an diagnosis of what my therapist wrote to someone and it kind of scared me because I didn't realize that it was that bad.
The last thing that was worrying me was my next semester classes. I realized that I only have three weeks until the next semester starts. I know like that seems like a lot but for me it is worse the longer the break from school.
A lot of stuff is worrying me and I'm concerned that things will get worse because the next semester is coming.
 Jaded Tatersalad · Fri Dec 22, 2006 @ 09:52pm · 1 Comments |
