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I have turned my back on those i care for once more
why i do not know
lost too my thoughts
i wander the streets
with this dead look in my eyes
once full of hope
and a wicked grin upon my lips
where a kind smile once rested
as those who care want me too go too them
when my path of maddness leads me farther and farther away
deeper into the darkness
farther than i have ever dared go
too the face of my evil
and the shame of my sin
for even i have my sins
though i do not beleave that i can repent too any of the gods

i dare not shead a tear
for i must kept my self as ice
cold and unfeeling
as the fires of maddness tear away at my soul
for in this time i am called too make a choice i dare not make
for the losses are too great no matter what i say
so i let this maddness take over
as i shut down
and lock myself away this time
for this is not a time for me too be weak
i must live on for death is a path i can not take
so now i hide away
leaving the maddness too push on threw the world

there words oh so cold
make me wish i could not hear
for now even the sweetst of words
i dare not hear
in fear they maybe wraped with poisons
too bring my down fall
for i know the snakes who called themselves friend
but wish only to taste my flesh
and bring about my end

so with that i return too the darkness of my mind
and shy away from my own light
for a light no matter how bright seems too burn my skin
and tear away my flesh
leaving only the bleached bones
so now i hide
and kept myself calm with the sounds of my own voice
as i draw
and write
the twisted thoughts of maddness
slowly winning over my mind
and drowing my heart in the abyss