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as i lay with eyes wide shut, i stare into the abyss of darkness before me.
i have nothing to look forward to except peaceful silence and serenity.
but my comforting isolation is not enough
im missing somthing, like somethings terring from inside
i wish for a companion, someone to talk to, anything
like a spinter in my ming driving me insane, i cant stop the paine
i dont know what i want i dont know need
like an invisible goal with no way to succeed. no! no!
whats wrong with me, the silence is gone taken with my screams.
the serenity is no longer there, when will i get out of this hellish nightmare
the shadows are laughing at me, i try desperatly to block it out but its too loud. what do they want, why are they mocking me. i tell myself there illusions but the sound still persists. there making a mockery of me.
i feel like im fighting for my survival, i feal evanescent. beneath my mortal facade my spirit screams out. when will this stop, no i cant take it anymore, when will this horrific torture stop!!!