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DeAr WhAtEvEr WeIrDos CoNcErN mE:
gee so ummn...wow i havnt written in what seems like forever. i shall update you. lets see now....
i finally got taken off my anti-depressants ^^ yay me. i was put on some other crap that made me leep and even me out...but i ran out and just stopped caring ninja i lived in burstall for the rest of the year since i last wrote and every day was a blurr or ordinary unchanging calenders. bland and borring...colorless children. the summer went over rather well id say. not as much suisidal behaviour or hate as most of my days seemed to fill with. but.....over the summer...something amazing happend thats still changing me and wont stop... i was given the option to live in calgary and take to the Alternative school. soon after i learned of what the alti school was...its a school for those who dont fit in within a normal school criculem...sounded perfect to me...everything about it. i couldnt believe how well things were going after that...my mom agreed to let me live in calgary with friensd of the family and go to the school..i got into the school (which takes alot of effort).

when first getting into the school i made friends almost instantly...mostly because of the smoke pit XD everydday seemed to hold excitment to me..getting to meet and see new ppl and places. i loved it. but most importantly i met a boy. once again threw the internet...but something was different this time. i dont know what it is but it makes me want him more than i did yesterday but not nerly as much as i will tomorow. i cant explain it really...i dont know...but his name is shane...he is 15 and will be 16 on dec 4(tomorow). he is beautiful inside and out and can make me smile all the time even with just the slightest word spoken. i...i love him...and i can finally say that and mean it....its fantastic. but the downfal is that he lives in Fort McMurry emo far far away. thats why i have asked my rents and i plan to have him move in with us...i cant wait...

but besides the paraice there are still the slight, an small problems that always find me...my biggest concern right now is...there are other boys who seem to like me...alot...it doesnt make scence to me >.< why me?....i feel so terrible letting them down...i had always told myself that id never say no cause i thought that id never be lovec and if i was it would be threw mail order wife XD ...problem 2: ive become heavily addicted to cigarettes >.< like 5 per day and its draining my money. problem 3: im on step 3 >.< step is a system in our school that keeps you on track and on step 4 your kicked out O.O"...so im pritty close to the edge...

but the good and the bad im FANTASTIC ...i cant control how happy i really am...its nuts...but...i'll shut up now

wow what a rant O.O


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