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i feel so shitty rite now. i dont want to like him anymore, but i can't help it. i hate him. but i dont. he never even said goodbye. he barely talked to me the entire 8 hour party. why am i even crying over him? i just want to forget him. i need someone to talk to. i dont want to be alone rite now. i never want to see him again. but i already miss him. what is wrong with me? i just want to curl up in a corner and never speak to anyone again. i wish jackie was still on aim. my dad was watching snl so i couldnt go on, and now she is off. i have no one. i feel so alone. like i'm falling in a bottemless pit, and theres no one there to help me out of it. i cant stop thinking about him. i hate it so much. i've got nothing but hurt from all this, and i want it to stop. but it wont, cuz i still want him. i hate it. i hate everything. no. i dont hate everything. i just want it to go away. i want the bad feeling to go away. i want him and that slut to go away. i just want a freind to talk to. ayay, jackie just got on! now i'm not so alone. but i still feel bad. i hate it.
"The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference. Hating shows you still care"