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This week has been very crazy for me, well I got back from NYC, saw my old friends from Cathedral, just like I planned it out. And well actually had time to see my other group of old friends that I consider the only "true" friends I ever had in my whole life, back when I enjoyed being outside and hanging out with friends all the time, and friendship meant the whole world to me. Anyways so well got to go back to my Ronkonkoma, New York house and go up the block to my old friend Joey's house, where we used to hang out alot while we waited for everybody to get ready to get to the bus, or on weekends we'd just wake up and hang out with each other and all. But well this visit was a very odd one in itself, to start off everybody seemed to be super happy to see me, questioning how I've been and all, but well the only person that seemed unwelcoming of my presence was my old best friend Joey, I mean I don't know what it was, but he just seemed like I shouldn't be there at all. So I tried to lighten his heart by joking around and all, he played the act of being happy I am there for awhile. But well the worst news I got out of all this is that my very old close friend Amanda, is now a slut and a drug addict. I was torn apart inside, I asked them to tell me again what had happened to her, and well I pretended to go along with their game of giving up on her and all that. But I was shocked because everybody said they "tried" to help her, but if they really did, she wouldn't be in the state of mind she is right now, or they would understand that "trying" is great and all, but stopping doesn't help her one bit, and that dealing with a friend who is a druggie and a slut, you really have to tackle it one problem at a time, and continue to work with them, and help them out little by little.

So yeah that was my thanksgiving vacation, became super depressed after that, and decided I am going to have to take a swing at helping her, yeah they have a great advantage since they live near her and all, but well still me talking to her through IM and myspace, may do some good hopefully at least.

well now as for this week, I haven't had one day where I haven't felt like I could collapse from lack of sleep, I sleep normally, but the drive of 26 hours to NYC and back to Florida just killed my sleeping pattern completely. So yeah and well I am at the point where Pre-Cal makes no sense to me, and I am failing his quizes like crazy. And well this whole week has been full of exams and reviews of exams, and upcoming mid-terms(they call it 1st finals) is coming up as well. Too much s**t to handle in one week and I can't wait to just end the week and hope that the next week is a hell of a lot better than this one.