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This is getting quite annoying. Somthing inside me is now refusing me to bring up gaurd. I cannot throw up that shield of blackened shadows that decieves you to who I am. My emotion can be read in my voice. My feelings for people is now leaking through the way i talk or the tone of my voice. I am trying hard to stay away from this... It will only lead to disaster. I wish so much to be able to let my thoughs and feelings free but I can never do it again. If I let what i feel go, it will only interfear with the friendship I have worked so hard to repair. I cannot WILL not let it be destroyed again over stupid ambitions such as apeasing my hunger. I do not know what hungers me so i will refuse to eat. Rather, I feed somone else who knows what they want.
This darkness inside me grows with evvery passing day. My telekenisis(or however you spell it) Is growing powerful. I know that demons are contacting me, but i cannot hear them, rather, i feel them. I can feel their pressence. I cannot here their voices, yet i can predict the manor of their emotion by what i feel in my chest. Like, for exampe, If a spirit is crying for help, I would feel desperation in my chest and make myself want to plea.
That's all i really have to say. I don't really like filling in my life on a journal so i refuse to make myself known through a journal. Good day, and good night.