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It's kind of stpuid, maybe...
But here's the story:

((my internet's shitty, so... just telling you in case I get kicked off of something.))

Daniel went with Crossroads to a youth group trip thing to Springfield. I think I told you about that.
Well... Crossroads is a christian ministry thing, right? Right.

And..
I dunno, Daniel called Taylor's phone when he got home, and after he talked to her about getting our asses to his house (haha) he wanted to talk to me.
He told me that the weekend was really, really emotional and confusing for him.
He used to be a Christian, as I'm sure you know. ((scene))
Well...
He told me that he seriously considered accepting Jesus "into his life" again, you know...
And that, I really don't mind.
He can choose to be in whatever religion he wants.
It's not up to me.
Whatever makes him happy, you know?
They're his belifs, not mine.

But he didn't do it.
He told me that if he was going to accept jesus and become a christian again,
he didn't want to live a double-life like all other christians do. He wouldn't want to half-a** it.
He said if he was a christian, he'd have to break up with me...
But then he told me that he wouldn't be happy without me.
He said that he'd rather have me over any god anyday. Hands down.
He made it perfectly clear to me that he wanted
to spend the rest of his life with me.

"Jesus can't hold me in his arms like you do."
I think he said something like that in the conversation.

But anyway, so I'm not worried for our relationship, I know he wont leave me, but..


The fact that he even considered breaking up with me...
He might not have considered it, but...
The fact that he even thought about it...


It really, really, really hurt.


I just got so scared...
So many what-if's running through my mind
that had no business being there...
I was so afraid...