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Well...I never thought that I would say this but I am. I give up...I give up! I have fought this battle of life too long. I am tired of trying to keep up with my "army"...tired of trying to fight away the "enemies" so that my "army" will be in good hands and will believe that they can tell me when the enemy is near. There is nothing left. I am throwing down my sword...this battle is over and I have been defeated. Just when I thought that I have finally "won" or gotten somewhere...the "enemy" grows 10x's stronger. It is not the reach of my hand that has given in...just the power in my heart that is over. I cannot keep hiding in the shadows waiting to attack...I now...will walk away in silence...and go on with a life that has nothing. I will tread new paths and look for new fields to wander in. If my "army" chooses to stay with me...then I am lucky...but they can be an "army" because I am not fighting anymore....
*sighs* This is how I am feeling with my friends, family, and the enimies...not just human enemies but lifes enemies....The power and love in my heart is just not strong enough to try and go on...
"If you believe its in my soul, I'd say all the words I know, Just to see if it would show, that I am trying to let you know, that I am better off on my own..."
~Midajah <><
 Midajah_Hardy · Thu Jan 20, 2005 @ 04:36pm · 0 Comments |
