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cry mad I am having MOOD SWINGS!!!!!!!!


RUN!!!!!!!!!!!

I got so mad today at my parents and life in general that I was banging around and slamming things and such. I was getting a little freaked out because I couldn't control my feelings.

I am depressed because people don't understand what is going on with me; I certainly don't. I am so tired and conflicted and scared. I get these intense feelings that I can't control.

This is just another stage that I going through because of the panic attack. I would never wish this on my worse enemy.

I don't know what to do and the not knowing is the worse.

I'm afraid to make decisions because I am afraid that I am going to be miserable and do something wrong.

I get the feeling that people don't want to talk about this because it's depressing and they don't want to go there.

Well, in the meantime, I am still here; having all these problems.

I'm sick of this damn stupid stuff.

I would even try to go back to the way things were even though I know that there had to be something wrong with it or this wouldn't have happened, just to get back in my comfort zone.

I feel guilty through all these things. All the time. Never ending.

I cleaned up my whole house today when I should have been studying for my midterm because I felt bad for bringing this up with my mom. That is pretty pathetic. I just couldn't stop.

I know I'm emo . But I can't help it. cry