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Alright, for those of you who know what or who I am talking about: KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, I DON'T NEED TO BE CRITISIZED ANY MORE! You people told me to detatch, to not care about him... but that didn't make me not care. I started to go numb, I let myself fall into a void, keeping my distance from emotions that would make things worse.... then he told me he was leaving, and a part of me was hurt, and part of my was delighted to be free of his burden. But now all I feel in his wake is the pain of ifs... if we had been closer to the truth, had we made that final step toward being together... had I never met him... all of the what if's just burning inside me.... I still care, I don't want to... but every time I talk to him, or about him, the pain of missing him just comes back.