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Here's something
I wrote before I went to bed last night:

It's our 4 month anniversary today.
We went to a gay (literally)
presentation at Sauk
and then went to the movies
to see The Covenant.
I had so much fun
with you today.
I'm so happy that
I got to spend time
with you
on this special day.
I can't wait
to live the rest
of my life with you.
Today was magic.
Then again,
every moment that I spend
with you
is magical.
There are visions I create
in my mind
of what would happen
if you left me.
They're not pretty.
But I know that
I don't have to
worry about that.
I know we'll be
together forever.
Forever isn't long enough,
but at least I get
to spend what time
we do have
with you.
I'm very grateful for that.

I worry about you a lot.
Sometimes I can tell
you're sad,
and when I ask you
about it,
you try to play it off
as no big deal.

I want to be able to help you
because you've helped me
so much.
I want to ease your pain
as you eased mine.
I want to make you happy
when you're sad.
But I can't do that
if you don't talk to me
about what upsets you.

I want you to know
that you keep me alive.
I want you to know
that nothing in this world
affects me,
pleases me,
inspires me,
helps me,
saves me,
soothes me,
and fills me with hope
and love
and life
like you do;
like your voice does.
The sound of your breathing
gets me through the day.
The beat of your heart
makes me feel at ease.
The taste of your lips;
the feel of your touch;
the sight of your eyes
fill me with joy.

You are everything to me, sweetheart.
Everything.
And I know
that, no matter what happens,
if I'm with you,
everything will be okay.

I love you always and forever.