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I give up
more and more
with each pointless beat of my heart
and i wonder if there is a point
too the hell i go threw
for every moment of joy
there are 5 of pain
so maybe i should
let this blade give me peace
maybe i should just let myself die
inside and out
for both are fading
faster and faster
each day i choose too fight it
and i loose each time
so i keep fighting my fools game
for i am a fool
caught up in his own mind
ive knowen the world
and now i wish too die
15 years
is just a flash in the eyes of most
but i believe it is all i can stand
so i fall
into the hands of death
and wait my gifts
i wait my damnation
that i would have served on earth
will now be finnished
in the fires off hell
so for now i leave with these
dark words
from my shattered heart
and borken mind

Forget you knew me
forget all the words i spoke
all you thought was in kindness
was really just my darkness
feeding its self more and more
feeding it self upon my hopes and dreams
and as you wished i felt
and what i wished too have
so now i watch it all rot away
within my heart
the blight still lingers
and spreads too all i touch
for i am yet another darkprofit
forcing what he sees into
and upon the world
and yet i know my falts
and i continue with them
as if they are no problem what so ever
as they have told my father i have heart of a saint
and the mind of a demon
and yet i laugh
for they speak the truth
i let things go by
that i should never
and i grab things
i know with hurt me

this is the only complete poem im going too post in here all the others have been/are peices of poems or its something i just threw togather from random thought