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Meh..Just feel the need to plop something down, even though like no one read's or looks at this damn thng but myself. sweatdrop

I'm uber excited for december to roll around..for once.><" I'm planning to go see my Michael at the endish of december, for at least a week if i can manage it. I want my new years with him at least! gonk

but of course..i'm also nervous but excited,happy,etc. it's nuts I know..but well yeah I can't help it. I love him. and this'll be of course the first meeting too. So it makes it even more special. heart And I'll be able to get out of this god damn state for once! gonk I hate NY! xp

Anywho..I just hope it all works out in the end, that I can go see him at least. We've been together for almost 2 1/2 years now..If this doesn't work out..I don't know what I'll do..maybe explode..maybe just go nuts. sad But I know it won't be pretty. Maybe I'll just break down and cry, because I wanted to go so badly and couldn't in the end.

But who know's! Hopefully for once luck is on my side, and it'll work out and I and go. heart God I hope so..Just the sight of seeing him now..gets me all teary eye'd..^^" I Know I'll cry when I see him, but mostly out of happiness..and all that.

I think I'll end this here..I'm exhausted and I need sleep. sweatdrop