Endless Pain
I sit here,
lingering over the past.
I will never forget,
all the horrible memories.
So many years,
all filled with tears.
Why can't I just move on,
forget all my pain.
These scar never heal,
they'll never leave me be.
My pain will remain,
until my life is done.
I know this is one thing,
that never stops.
I just can't go on,
and I'll be hurt forever.
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What do you do,
when you have nobody to go to,
When the man who's sholder,
you used to cry on is gone.
Where do you turn,
when everywhere you go hurts.
How do you manage,
when the one you love is gone.
Why can't people understand,
when you just want to be left alone.
Who do you turn to,
when everyone turned on you.
Nobody Knew
He walks to school with a gun in his hand,
not sure of anything.
Ready to make the pain stop,
ready to take it away.
Is it a cry for help?
does anybody know.
Is it there to take his life,
or take the life of another.
Nobody knows,
what pushed him to this.
Nobody thought,
is would really come this far.
Nobody knew,
if he planned this or not.
So what's going to happen now?
what will we do after this?.
Hopefully one day,
we'll all just wake up,
and it will all just be a dream.
In the Mirror
Who is that girl in the mirror?
that can't be me can it?
I used to have my whole life toegther,
used to know all the answeres then and there.
When I was a child,
everything just seemed peaceful,
I was so ful of joy back then.
I used to be glowing,
I used to be beautiful as the stars.
Now look at me,
I've fallen apart.
I can hardly remember how to smile,
how to have a good time without causing trouble.
My life is so messed up,
everything in so complicated now.
I wish I could rewind time,
to when I was that happy little girl,
and everything was to perfect.
What is that thing in the mirror,
all I know is it used to be a sweet little girl.
Why did everything change?
why did all the joy in life go?.
I hate this monster in the mirror,
and I wish it could go back to the angel of the past.
Fear and Love
Its like I fell into a dream,
everything felt so magical.
But I fear this dream,
and love it too.
So confused now,
don't know what to think.
When he sang I listened,
and no one else would.
He's my inspiration,
and my deepest fear.
Oh but how I need him,
but must leave him.
He was with me everywhere,
and I loved and feared being with him.
And now I must choose,
to stay with him or leave him.
Last Words
So many words left to say,
But I don't have enough time to say them all.
You know I'll be gone soon,
And my story will have ended.
Tell my mother that I'm sorry,
I didn't mean to slam the door,
I didn't mean to yell and shout,
I didn't want to make her cry,
She's done so much for me,
And I love her so much.
Tell my father that I'll miss him,
He's always been there for me,
He used to play with me when I was a child,
And he trusts me no matter what,
He's always been there for me,
Even when I didn't deserve it,
And I owe him the world.
Tell my little brother I was just mad,
When I told him he was a loser,
When I yelled at him for coming in my room,
I know he'll be a great man when he's older,
And he'll take care of his family,
Just like he took care of me.
Tell my boy friend I really love him,
I was afraid to say the words out loud,
But in my heart I knew they were true,
He made me the happiest girl in the world,
I wanted to live with him forever,
And tell him I'll always be his girl,
Even after I die.
Tell my best friend she was always there for me,
When I was sad she'd talk to me,
She helped me through so much,
She was the coolest and funnest girl around,
And I owe her so much.
Tell the guy that shot me,
That I'm laying in a hospital bed now,
Thinking over my life,
And realizing how much people meant to me,
Tell him I was going to go to college,
I wanted to be a nurse,
So I could help people,
Ask him why he shot me,
Ask him what I did to him,
That upset him so badly,
Tell him if I did hurt his feelings in anyway,
That I'm sorry and I didn't mean to.
I love you all so very much,
And I know its my time to go,
But I leave you with these simple words,
I'm going to a better place now,
And I'll be standing at Heavens gate waiting for you all.
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