Alright, I signed up for homecoming court at my school, I doubted I'd win, but I signed up anyway. Well I got really excited when they announced who was up for the final running, then I felt bad when I found out I didn't make the cut. Alot of people told me I should have made it or that they were sorry I didn't win, I just kinda shrugged it off. I didn't really start to feel too bad until I got back into class and Marcus gave me a hug and said he was sorry I didn't make it, then it kinda hit me, I had REALLY wanted to win. Everyone that told me things like I should win, I just told them I didn't care, it wasn't a big deal, life goes on. But I really wish I had stood a chance. I got my hopes up for nothing. I never tried for anything like that before, I don't know why I thought I had any possibility of winning. I guess it was just a joke in my mind. A joke that I feel really bad about now. Now I feel kinda dissapointed.... alright, I'm just sounding like a whiny kid now.... that is pathetic.....
 [Aku~Soku~Zan] · Sun Sep 17, 2006 @ 04:29am · 3 Comments |
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