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'Anger...'

My love, will I ever be healed?
Will you ever be whole again?
Shall I leave you to yourself?
Do you want me to disappear?
Have I angered you? You want me to tell you the truth?
Do you really want to hear it? Fine, here it is. Enjoy it.
You used my heart. Punished my soul. Shreded my dignity,
and smashed my ability to ever forgive you.
There it is. Do you like it? Didn't think so, but you ask for the rest.

You used me. You fooled me with the promise of love. You
sexed me and seduced me with your words of an undying love.
When you grew tired and bored with me, you discarded me.
Left with little esle to hang onto, I clung to your forgiveness.
You tossed me aside.
You were through with me. Alone and confused, I
cried for the pain you inflicted upon my soul.
Then, you boosted your ego with boasts of our
failed romance to your nosy and seductive friends.
At once I saw your bastardly ways.
I felt sorry for you and my sadness
concerning you became livid, boiling,
Anger toward myself. And with that I
vowed to put a wall between myself and you.
I hated what I had let myself be fooled into.
I hated myself for believing your lies. I
blame myself for my short lived sadness.
I am stronger now. I am away from your asinine ways.
I am free to be myself.
And I am once more becoming Independant.

I hope you live a long and happy life. For if you don't,
I hope you don't get caught alone with me in a dark alley.