growing up in a capitalistic society i never felt a sense of belonging.
i knew from a young age we couldn't afford much
but i also knew we needed money to do things so having no money effected that
i was reminded not to ask for things, my mom would tell me "we're not here for you" as if i had always asked for thing after thing.
i never understood how much things were
my parents talked about money but i never knew their finances truly
i'm scared i won't be able to give my kids anything
they have things already of course
but as they grow their needs will change and the cost of living will only increase
SNAP has ran out, come November 1st no one will receive benefits
I'm struggling but i've been putting it off, or succumbing to it if anything..
I know things are bad and won't get better any time soon
I'm just trying to hold on, this is more than I've been able to mentally handle in awhile. I feel undervalued at work, I can't keep up with things at home
Existence just feels guilty under capitalism
Rent is due, 950, and I won't have it
Utilities are due, 130 for pge, 220 for water
Phone bill is due
I have no idea what's in the fridge or pantry
I have been putting these tasks for far out of my head
All the chores Tony has been helping with really
I've been trying to keep up after myself
Trying to keep up for the kids so they don't have to struggle at all
This timeline is so different, learning then and learning now
Electronics my kids have
I'm exhausted, it's all catching up right now and I'm really scared for what will happen.
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