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Haven't I suffered enough?

I had to couch surf most of my damn childhood and growing years away, getting kicked out of place after place... I just want to rest. I want... a place I can stay, can return to... a home. Due to the state of politics right now however, I might lose my "home" because apparently disabled people are just leeches. Government never helped me, so why not be a "leech" hm? No one will hire me and I myself don't want to be a wage slave working until I die. Rather go out on my own terms. I did everything right. I jumped through all the hoops. I got the income I needed to survive/scrape by and it's... never enough is it?

I'm so done. But I can't "disappear prematurely" cause I promised s**t to people.

Spose I could go in depth about crap, what I mean in the above or whatever cause it's just a summary of the interconnected web of bs in my head right now but... meh...

I don't drink. I don't do drugs. I don't smoke. I don't... "get in bed with people". Still got my damn "V card" for gods sake. Honest to a fault. And after all that, nothing. I follow the damn rules and all I get is shat on. So be it.

Rant rant rant... gimme free plat.