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I totally feel like s**t!
I have a fundraiser this weekend that will drain me of my energy and I work as well...and...correction...two fundraisers. and i also learned from someone who actually had the guts to tell me that my whole team doesnt like me and find me to be a total b***h. Of course my attitude was not the best but I still tried my best. I cant wait for this season to be over. I dont want to see them again! I thought that we had this good thing going on but i learned that it was not the case. They hate my attitude and my personnality. They think that i talk to them in a condalescent manner when i actually dont... when it sounds like i am doing so i am just trying not to cry because i hate this.... it hurts every time i go to training. This week i skipped out on it...told the one person on the team who doesnt hate me to tell them that i hurt my arm... but they didnt really care... n e ways ive been doing a lot of crying these days... my heart hurts... my head hurts...and im tired... damn i want to quit so badly i cant stand this... i wish they would have told me this before...how they felt and stuff... but no...they tell me this at the end of the season... good job .... now i just wanna sleep and/ or die... ill see which one comes quicker.... sleep sounds tempting though
ill go to bed... im fed up!!