I can't do this anymore...
Maybe I'm not ment to be with anyone...
Maybe I'm ment to be alone cause thats what it seems like now...
Or maybe it's just that I'm trying too hard. I don't know, but I'm beginning not to care anymore. I'm tired of getting hurt and I'm tired of crying at night all because of a guy. It doesn't make sence how I can like someone so much and then think they like me back but then they don't when they act as though they do. It just confuses me so much and I hate it. I should just give up on relationships because I'm only hurting myself more.
Last night started out fun and I was so looking forward to going and then it turned out to be horrible. I was so upset and I almost started crying because of Dan which was a total a** hole about something so ******** stupid. He's such a d**k head sometimes, I just want to punch him in the face.
Last night was just a drag. I don't think I'm gonna go to Big Wheel anymore for a while, I'm not sure yet. I found some stuff out that made me really upset and it shouldn't have. I really have to learn how to deal with getting shot down. I hate being hurt, I hate crying because of something like this. I shouldn't be crying over a guy, but he's special. He's important to me. I just thought I had a chance this time, but I guess I was wrong.
Like always...
