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well people here I am with another update on the forgotten journal on my gaia page w00t yea any way I’ll be on at very random times for the next 9 days because I’m at my grandmother’s trailer and her apartment for the next while while my family goes up north to Algonquin park… yes a little rest and relaxation wouldn’t you agree? Maybe rent a game and hang out with Gazello at pittock and a bit of swimming… just to get away from home it’ll be sweet…. Just to ditch that responsibility and the need to look after everything will just melt away… no sister… no mother… no father… just me and a couple of horror movies and video games to beat….*sighs* cannot wait ! I’ve been looking forward to this for months and a divorce almost ruined it….. Oh yea my Aunt Tammy and Uncle Michael are getting divorced ‘cause Tammy was cheating apparently… I really don’t want to know but I have too right? The eldest child needs to take care of the family in these times of need… it’s just like what I do at school only this time I don’t have a choice… you know I helped people at school cause I love helping my friends when something is wrong and watching them suffer kills me… I know I’m not the center of attention and I’m not a glamour queen… I’ve often been referred as a female Marilyn Manson by my friend sakurachanbaby ( Stephanie)… and my brother always used to call me Misery…. You know ‘cause apparently I fit the description “ misery loves company” or “ misery’s your master” *shrugs* so I’m not the brightest person … but I give a lot of effort when it comes to my friends…. They’re about the only family I have that I can truly count on when I need them…… some of them are easily swayed to think that if they make a mistake or do something that they think hurts me that I won’t trust them anymore… just like Jason…. He’s one of my closest friends and we did at one point date… yep boyfriend and girlfriend but things changed and we decided that it was time to break off. And apparently (as I found out today) that he thought I wouldn’t come to him for help if I needed it…. Because he broke up with me..... That was wrong…. But he was right about one thing…. I normally don’t like talking about my problems with people…. It to me is like revealing something I’ve tried to forget.


See here’s the conversation:

Jason: so how's it been going? A little better at home?

Megan (me): not really I'm running the place at the moment... mom is too unstable... dad won't listen to me and is picking fights with me and my sister is being difficult

Jason: … I’m sorry

Megan: hey it's ok not your fault

Jason: well I’m here if you need me, ok?

Megan: I know, thanks

Jason: I know you probably don’t want to, but if all else fails

Megan: what makes you think that?

Jason: well you don’t like to talk about that stuff much in the first place and just ‘cos it’s
…me

Megan: well I’m used to being laughed at for it…. And what do you mean ‘cos it’s me’?

Jason: well never mind, but I would never laugh at you.

Megan: I know you wouldn’t… but why not explain what you mean?... you’re not mad?

Jason: of course I’m not mad

Megan: you seem a bit distant than usual.

Jason: how so?

Megan: you just don’t want to explain things

Jason: well I didn’t think that you’d want to come to me with your deepest problems
‘cos I dumped you

Megan: is that all? *shakes head* listen Jason I trust you… honestly even though you
Dumped me… I mean we’re still good friends right? I would never hold a
Break-up against you

Jason: really?

Megan: of course

And we’ll let it drop there I guess so yea… see easily swayed… but in the end they’re all I have and I love each and every single one of them for being themselves and tolerating each other this long lol. We’re all different and it gives us a reason to hang out.

Ok Jason is the music genius
Gazello is the force aka the brute
Demonlordsasuke is the punk
Sakurachanbaby is the prep
Ryan is the preps boyfriend
Jamie is the whinny baby
Chobit-389 is my little stalker but hilarious too
Jess is way too innocent
Amy is the group’s own personal …. @$%^#
Bruce is the comic relief and a great friend
Canadian_trekkie is the person with all the facts
Matt is just there because he can be
Old goat: is my 16 year old video game friend
Jen is my b***h and a wonderful anime friend
And there is me…. Emo/goth… even ground the mediator, forgiver and the one who is
Often taken advantage of


But that’s enough of that… I’m looking forward to a little R&R for the next 9 days so nothing will ruin it… unless a family emergency occurs… yea that’ll wreak it…. But positive thinking and chocolate dreams all filled up…… well I’ll leave you guys now before I put you to sleep…this was a long journal….

Well peace out ladies and gentlemen this is the bound angel signing out see you guys later peace!

heart mike heart I swear he’s one of a kind I love him