My dad's birthday is Friday!!! I am going over to his house....He lives in Washington. It's going to be so fun! I have no clue what we are doing..I think he is taking the day off...Usually we get to spend a month with him during the summer...but...He is working over time...He drives a truck....he drives...over ...500 miles a day....He wakes up at 1 am...goes to work until 5 pm...so...he works a lot...and we barely get to see him...But....Oh well I guess...I mean..he does it for my brothers and I....so we can have tons of money...since...when he grew up...His father went to jail...and he was left to live in a car and steal things from people's gardens....He doesn't want our life...to be like his was...He wants us to be the happiest it ever could be. And he does so much for us..and he doesn't want us to give him anything in return....He doesn't want anything for his own birthday....I want to save up my money...and then take him to the best Chinese resturant ever....I want him...to be happy....I am not even going on the computer this friday...so I can spend time with him....I miss him so much...He doesn't talk about his past much...but....I bet it wasn't good...because I found....some pills that he took....and it was anti-depressants....and he never told me that before...and he usually would...he probably didn't want me to worry...but he drinks a lot...which really sucks....I don't know...I miss him tons...We use to see him every tuesday and thursday and every other weekened...and I still missed him...now we only see him every other weekened...and I know...that some people don't see their fathers...as much as I do...and I shouldn't be complaining...but every thing I am...is him...I mean...the type of music I like...what I do...how I act...I mean...He was never around me when I was really young because he was working all the time...to make mom and I happy...so I thought if I liked everything he did...and did basically everything he did...I wouldn't miss him anymore...as much as I did...because I knew he would always be with me..(I miss washing his Semi-truck with him....It used to take about 2 to 3 hours...and I would wash the tires...because I was too little to do anything else lol...I miss going to Tacoma, Boise, Tri-Cities and back to Tacoma with him....He drived everywhere....to load and unload the truck...but now...I can't do that...He always working....and...if he was going to give me something for my birthday...all I would want to do...is to go to work with him....even if it's illegal...he's done it before...and I miss the old times...I mean...everything seemed perfect...I was...the one who had...a great life...and...I know I shouldn't be wanting it back..because there is always going to be hardships in life...but it's only human...and god damn't...I want it back really bad....lol...).. When we moved....I guess...like a part of me...just died....I do so much for my dad....And I know he is going to die soon...and that's horrible to say...but...I just have that feeling....his years are only years...no more centuries or decades...anymore...and....I have a feeling if he dies...then...I will go with him...because I really don't want him too.....I know he wants to though...you can just see it in his eyes....He tries to drink....and take pills for the pain...but I know...it will never work...that is why when I was forced to move away from him....I cut myself...because I couldn't help him anymore...he had to help himself...and I knew he couldn't...and wouldn't do that...I hate talking about him...because it sounds like he's a monster to some people....yes....he's an alcoholic...and yes...he takes anti-depressants...and yes...he has anger issues...but...he is my dad...and I care for him more...than anybody will...
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