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First off today has not been the greatest days in my life...
this girl i dont love but she has a crush on me finnally says something even though i have known for a long time about this and i really dont want to hurt her feelings probabbly because im too nice... who knows.. and i dont want to be a kerry and totally make myself love a person just to have a gf.

Secondly i find out another girl likes me which to me means holy crap i dont need this stuff right now i dont love any of them... So, since we are at a dance a slow song comes up and the first girl keeps putting her head on my chest and im thinking "god help me crying " but the second girl kept her distance.. and whatnot and i think that the first girls cousin liikes me too now which also means more s**t i dont want to deal with i mean i know i need a girlfriend and all but i wont break my self created code...only date if ya love them... which means more s**t for me... by the way i found out recently my brothers and i are indigo children which means we remember our past lives my mom is questioning me but i know my past life and i dont share it too anyone only because it means a lot to me and the way i am.

and then this b***h brittney talks bad about my brothers girlfriend and expects me to be totally alright with that!!! bitches like her who are complete sluts seriously need to rethink where their lives are headed..

on the brighter side of the bulb... (hehe)
my friend mandy was like what if we had children imagine what that would be like which makes me think... lets see the kids would probabbly be totally rebellious(both), lazy(me), cute(both), and interesting group of people. After this i was thinkiing.. two responses Perverted where i go "what are you suggesting something" and do the whole eye brow thingy.. or b just shut up and not do anything... not being perverted i chose b... I came to the bethel installation mostly for amanda... i really didnt want to go but i was like ya get to see mandy so i went and yeah. The slow songs i kept thinking... need to find mandy to escape two girls with crushes but caroline is good at getting through groups of people
and kept catching me.. oy... so the whole time i hung around mandy and joe and his gf aeris. We had fun so it was cool but i wish caroline would leave me alone.

I dont know why but lately i have been wanting to apologize to mandy for being such and a** to her a few months ago but i dont know how to put it... i mean back then when kerry had a crush on her i wanted both of them to be happy but i didnt know what to do which officially probabbly was what made me go insane but i havent shown the sighns of insanity around them. I like being around manda cuz when im around her i feel like i can do whatever and nobody cares.. im craziest around her ><;

well, thats all im putting today now i can sleep... i wish mandy had her computer priveliges back so she could read this... - -; i'll put more when i have the time i can sleep in peace now.