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What have you done today?

Sometimes, I can't but ask myself that, and wonder if my response of A. play computer games B. watch anime and C. play video games is satisfactory. It isn't. Compared to the things I should be doing, the signifigance of above activities are close to none. Where will Maplestory get me in life? Does gaia help me in any way? Why on earth am I still playing Neopets and Runescape?!

I am confused.

One of my friends announced that he planned to quit gaia recently. It's not that much of a shock though. I've always known that my online friends would someday all leave me one by one for the real world. I should be used to it, but every time one of them shrinks back into the shadow that is responsibility, I feel a bit more lifeless. Why? I have no answer.

I respect him for his decision, it shows maturity and the ability to keep priorities in order. He made the people fortunate enough to be in the same thread as him laugh. His strange personality brightened everyone's day.

Strange though, now that I've thought about it for a bit, it seems that he was one of the few things that kept me interested in gaia. Hmmm...

It got me thinking though. I, too, want to grow up comfortably, and the online world is just a distraction. Perhaps that was what the people were thinking as my friendlists grew ever more small and quiet. It's a choice between want and need, I suppose, but I can't seem to return to the shadow. I've seen the brightness of the sun, and am reluctant to leave the joyfullness that it gives me.

No.

Most probably, I will continue to value play before work, as I have always done. Old habits die hard, you know.

Yeah, I'll miss the pirininja, but I guess we all walk different paths. His is not mine. I'll find some way to balance fun and good grades on the same silver platter. If he ever reads this, then it is here, that I wish him a happy life.

Don't wither, lonely flower.

Edit: never mind, what's with this weird sentimentality stuff anyways? Anyhow, better keep this so I can laugh at myself in the future.