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I know this is never read and whatever..I don't expect it to be..so I guess it doesn't matter really..I just need to get this out is all...

Sometimes...I can't help but sit here and cry..I just can't help but feel a little lonely sometimes..I miss him so much..it may even hurt. I dont know..I'm too clouded by my tears and soft cry's of "I love you..I miss you..I wish I was with you right now.."
He is my everything and more..my darling Michael..my one and only love. He is my other half..and my smile. I would do anything and more for him..but anyone would for someone they care so much about..

Without him..I have no happiness. Call me crazy I don't care..but its how it is..
I know he feels it too..the longing..the want..the need,everything as I do. But..maybe just a little bit longer..and we won't have to wait anymore..I know it will take time. And every second is worth it just to see and be with my beloved.

I may sound sappy right now..but I couldn't give a damn how I sound. It was just our 2yr anniversary on the 22nd of June..I would have given anything to be with him..even if it was just one day..but to me it would feel like forever with him,like time had stopped in my favor..just so I could see him..just a little longer..

I really can't help but sit here and cry..I just miss him so much..I can't help but long for his touch, to have his arms wrapped around me and to know it'll all be ok..because we are together and thats all that matters.

But..overall..I can and do smile...not because I don't want to worry anyone..but because the first time in a long time..I'm happy..I'm truly happy, and more in love than I have ever been. This is my true love. And I know now what love really is, and I love every second of it.

I love you my sweet darling Vincente..no wait..I love you my sweet darling Michael. With all that I am and more. heart

I will always and forever be loving you. heart
your love,
~Amanda~