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i just can't believe it... jason and i broke up and then he goes out with the girl, karin, he dumped to go out with me!! what the hell is wrong with him??!!! crying i still love him i guess not quite over it as everyone things... i tend to do that hold everyhting in and then go home and cry about it later that night it all depends on the situation.
i've never felt so betrayed before i mean we have a lot in common and he just breakes down.... i don't know what to do anymore... i can barly look after myself let alone everyone else in our group... i'm not fit to help anyone anymore...... i can't bear anything anymore i should be over jason if i'm dating mike now right if i'm picking thisngs up where we left i should be... or maybe i don't love jason anymore and it's just disgust? i hope because if me and mike pick up where we left off that means i'm engaged again... yes.... i'm to be mrs. Bott... smile i look forward to it actually... i can finnaly leave this country and live with the person that means the most to me on this planet heart i just wish that it would be sooner than later . it'll be at least 2-3 years before he finishes college and comes down here for me. and by then i'll be in my 2nd year of college blaugh but i can wait we have a lot in common and we bout have highly spiritual beliefs ... which means he'll respect my religion unlike a lot of other people.... only thing is is that i don't think he likes the same type of music as me.. he likes jazz and rock... although he does like linken park and evanescence so it's all good... i'll get him hooked on at least koRn . blaugh xd

anyway i've bugged you guys enough hope you're all well

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