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((I've finally found the one I love, and someone is already attempting to ruin it. No, not James, or my bf's little cousins for that matter, but his mom. I remember when Rikki and I were talking on the phone as we routinely do, but he mentioned something about counseling. Later on, he mentions medication. He goes on about how it'll make him boring, but what I'm worried about is that the medication would make him... not him. I was thinking in work today, going over everything in my mind, and suddenly, the vision of me trying to give him a wet willy to lighten the mood. He brushes my hand away and says "not right now" I held my mouth as my throat tightened, my eyes welled up in tears, right before I was about to cry, Chelsea comes up from behind me, singing an older song the way she usually does. It surprised me, but at least it stopped me from crying like a loser. I don't want him to change in any way. He's perfect the way he is, at least he is to me. If he is forced to take this medication, I hope he still bitches at his mother as he did before, but worse. I'd probably join him. I never attack anyone unless I've been wronged personally, but if this medication actually changes him, even if it is temporary, it will be personal. From the way I see it, medication is like make up. It wears off, and can be re-applied, hiding facial difficulties and such from the world. But it doesn't change what's really under that make up. I'm sure he'll be the same person, but I'm so worried. I don't want him to change. I want him to always be the same guy I fell in love with, that I can hug and kiss, and have wet willy/lick fights with him. I can't believe that that Lady Koshu of a mother thinks that the meds will make him more obedient. xp She says that she loves her son, but now she's proved it's all superficial. If you love someone, you have to accept the flaws with the negatives. I personally find my bf flawless, but apparently, she sees otherwise, so screw her. If she messes with him at all, I'll have a new person to put on my s**t list. neutral ))