ジュンイジ シキジョウ
Well, for those of my legion who don't know just how screwy the situation is with me and my other personality, Yuvaw, here's a story! This happened just ten minutes ago, more or less. Involving a Tarrot Card reading.
Mmm-boy, that sounds alot cornier than I expected it to... And it gets cornier!
So, my friend here tells me that he's been doin' some tarrot readings earlier. And that the three of them were -extremely- accurate. He even did one for himself that was a bit frightenning. So of course I want one done for me! surprised
Now, a little side-history on Yuvaw... Corny or over-dramatic as it may sound, this is where you can debate with me, but I believe Yuvaw's a seperate soul. A demonic-type soul. Like, something you'd get exorcised out? Not one of those hokey exorcisms(I am spelling that right, aren't I?). An exorcism that an actual priest would have to do, with the holy water n' all that. And believe me when I say, there's a good lot of experiences from Yuvaw being in control that would spark someone as skeptical as me into thinking that. I mean, there's some s**t I just can't explain, and nobody I knows can, either.
Anyway, back to the story... So, he gets on with my reading. And, it makes so much sense, it's scary... It went along the lines of "A waste of talent, due to a harmful environment, with lack of concentration is the root of the problem". Yes. Ever since I was about 7, that's been the way of my life. And that's how it is now. I can't concentrate well enough. "Waste of talent and lack of concentration leads to lost opertunities" Also an EXTREMELY accurate card... No, hearing that didn't make me feel better. There is -so much- in my life, so many huge opertunities that have passed me by. Mainly due to a poor environment, and long-ground-in lack of concentration. :: I could have had my own show by now, you know? An actual anime - in Japan. I could have gone to one of America's finest art colleges, could be there right now. And who knows what else...
Now, the next card - "Expect a journey you have planned to end up in disaster and delay". I was planning to head up to this friend's place, and -get- an exorcism to be rid of Yuvaw... He just needed the money, they had already contacted a priest about it that verrified a particular demon in the bible that resimbled closely to my description of Yuvaw.
I got the white card next. One that was meant to explain my talents, skills, gifts. It means, i'm not to know what they are - or that they havn't been decided fully yet. This will make sense in a moment. Keep in mind, also, that at this point and for the entire day - it's been clear weather. Not a sign of storm. Now, the next card - A hopeful card. A chance for rebirth, new opertunities. A chance for a new life, with good fortune and virtue. Longevity. - That cheered me up!... before we got the next card.
The next card was - "You choose to see the darkness rather than see the light. Destructive energy at work, breaking things down - Lack of control leads to incomplete results, and a change for the worst"... Which, after thinking about, makes me assume this theory ::
:: My skills (I do have some spiritual skills, that I havn't worked in quite some time) that was the blank card (Had not been decided) were undecided because of a choice I have in the future. A choice of either elevating to a new, brighter plane of my life - Or spiralling into the destructive energy life. And apparently, I go for the latter... Due to lack of control. Which makes sense, as I know Yuvaw holds more control and strength than I do at this time.
"I'm ********!" is exactly what I said after thinking all of this. Weather's still clear outside at this point. So, after a few minutes of both me and my friend freaking out - he opts to do a simpler one. A small reading, for just one question. I go for it, and ask "How/When will I die?" since that previous reading makes it seem evident that i'm going to die - or come to some dead level - if Yuvaw does take full control. Especially if he actually -is- some hellish demon truly bent on world destruction...
So, my friend puts the deck down. And as -soon- as he does, there's a thunderclap outside. And remember, it was CLEAR WEATHER up until this point. That didn't help lose any of our anxiety. He then starts shuffling for the next small reading...
This was the result :: "How/When will I die?" - The first card;; "This represents an agreement that can benefit both parties." sounds kind of good, right? But, I don't want to benefit Yuvaw. And, thinking that he's going to be taking over, the only benefit I might get in some agreement is not dying - but being pushed into a subconcious level. A trade-off, that I don't want to make. Which instantly made sense, given the next card :: "There will be unwillingness to make personal sacrifices". That's exactly what it said. Do I need to explain?
And the next card :: "Determined effort of will, and the querent will experience strength, good health, and energy." and after reading this, a storm began to stir outside. Holy ********' hell, right? A storm comming out of nowhere after reading -those-? Call me paranoid, but... when is something -too much- of a coincidence?
So yeah. I'm ********, I think. Karmicly ********... Care to debate? surprised
Midnight Lust
