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Im really tired. I am drowzy from many things. I feel physically tired from the lack of sleep I have been getting reciently. I am tired of the crime on the news here. And Im tired of my growing little issue.

I know Im making, this girl thing into a very large issue. Its getting old. Even for me. I shouldn't really be concerned with this noncence. But I think that everything that has happened and not happend is really affecting and bloating this issue.
I think its more the little things that I want. Like going on a date or somthing soppy like a kiss. I feel that the longer it takes to happen the worse I'll be at that sort of thing. As if time is running out, wich it is in a sence. What I am coming to realise more and more is that its just not going to happen in one night or two.

I have no idea how long its going to be before I have some one special, and I know that its not going to just happen like that. That scares me in a sence. Partly because I don't know if this issue is going to get bigger or smaller.
Im becoming sick of filling my journals with this "I want this I want that" noncence. Why is it such a big deal to me!?