This is just for my sake, just a log something for me to go back to read
For the past year my life has stayed pretty much the same and yet so so different
my brother past away...no one saw that coming bt there where some things with him that made the family worried.....I and my mother feel like i betrayed her for my father whom I hate...i dont wish anything to harm him any more...
I dont cre what happens to that b*****d...MY friends are totally diferent then again...Im totally diferent, from a chunky acne skined black girl who was quiet and had not too many friends to who I am now....Im not totally skinny im not fat either my skin cleared up I turned gothic and to something i dont even know anymore...im just me . I yell I scream I want to be heard.....I dont do those things in school . Making my grades good and making my teachers like me is hard enough and its how I pass the years of school . I love hip hop, R&B
metal, alternative , pop, techno etc. I like many things now I like heavy metal now too which i Would never in a million years consider listening to.
Im half black half puerto rican ive always felt a little confused
I stared to dislike puerto ricans because of whast my father is and he makes mew so mad and so ashamed...I hate him.....my mother hates him...his own family hates him....so therefore i started to hate myself. bt i know now his mistakes arent mine! I hae done just fine with what i have ....my mother and GOD
They are why I live....At one point in time they were what I considerd truthfully the only thing I was living for If I didnt have either of the two I would be dead right now...but they gave me strength and I love life! I love every breathe I take because it is a blessing . at one point in my struggles to finding out who I am I got into dark clothing , chains heavy metal my thought where very dark and hurting me, MY friends are into those thing they also got me through hard time in my struggles...I started toattend a church close to my home...I guess it was just a miracle I was labled "GOTHIC" you know anyone can be what they want to be. no one in this world has the right to judge another no one is perfect
I know Im not...no one is we are all in the same boat. a person is a person and should only be judged by there actions, not of there father or mother
I know that now. and I proudly walk backwards to the beat of my drum
I love color ...reds greens blues , black I enjoy many things from my darker side I still like certain heavy metal band
Im just a multi fascinated person!...I love drawing art is my life ...
and thats what a consider life a big work of art the good with the bad but there is always hope and progress. I can say HEY I LIKE SLIPKNOT AND MISSY ELLIOT
DAMN IT!
I have many bothers and sistr from my father and they are a blessing to me...
they are beautiful lil kids even though my fathers a piece of crap Ill love them to death no matter what!
I have changed I maybe i might have a bit of an attitude problem but im not going to be happy-go- lucky all the time ..just stay out of my way and we'll be just fine or I'll b***h slap yo a** mrgreen
hey ima different person know from when I was 6 or 13 people change every second of the day...we grow we change...we live its a part of life
so just bare with it a roll with the punches
and I am not a rascist ...just to say to any of my closer friends who reads this ninja people have to stop making fun of mexicans what is wrong with that
cause people piss me when they make stupid racial remarks as if they are better than someone else...........well if anyone does read all this crap you really must have nothing better to do...or really love and want to know more about my thoughts either way you got alot of time on your hands
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! and to my frenemys dont hate on me bitchez! I love you too mrgreen heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart
Oh yeah to brendon urie you will be mine ~MUAHAHAA~
p.s. panic! at the disco for life! 3nodding
 Artemis_child · Mon Jun 12, 2006 @ 02:29am · 2 Comments |
