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I dropped A&P and officially feel like a loser. I am so depressed. I know that it is alright to drop a class if you have to but, I feel like such a disappointment. I am such a wreck. I didn't used to have problems going to school, it just started when I took last semester classes. I used to love learning new things. I went into a deep depression that took me a long time to get out of and now it seems like the same thing is going to happen each time I start a new semester. I don't know what to do.

I used to have nightmares when I was little that I was in a class and I didn't know what was going on. I think that I am just too much of a perfectionist. I don;t know how to do something half heartedly or how to do a crappy job. I can't seems to get a control on myself sometimes.

I feel okay now, but every time I think about A&P I get depressed and start crying. I don't know what is going to happen when I have to take it next year. Will I be able to do it? I don't know how not to suceeded. I know that that is pretty lame.