Gawd, I miss him so much.. I feel so empty without him.. I got to talk to him for the sum of 30 minutes for the past three days.. its torture without my beloved.. This morning.. because how empty I felt, I cut myself.. I always hear how people say they are going to comite suicide, but they never do.. and some of my friends go on about how they are going to hurt themselves, but rarely do they.. but I did.. there was a bit of blood, but not much.. and this evening, it has already completely healed.. I dunno why.. but it is.. I just got to talk to Caloth, and then my mom was eaves dropping.. and I was reading my journal entery to him from yesterday, and she paniked because of my depression, its nothing unexcpect.. well she went through my binder for school, and I will be restricted from the comp soo for a very looong time.. she is only letting me on now because she has yet to get my grade card..
 Neduls · Thu Sep 30, 2004 @ 03:58am · 5 Comments |
