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Why, hello my funny friends!
Today was weird. Fanny called and I couldn't go.. That wasn't nice, you know.. But I didn't have to do too much work, hee!
I had no piano lessons, and that wasn't good, since I wanted to go, and I really love the new piece I have. I think that the way my piano is going, I'll be quite good after a while.. I guess. But you know the thing is, I feel like my loudness and emotion level aren't as good as I'd like them to be.. I feel that I'm not good, and this is magnified by Santi and J.. Man. I thought I was good, and then they tell me that I'm actually worse than my lowest expectations..

I don't know. About Sean, I mean. I felt a familiar tang in my stomach when Arvind told me he scored about two or more goals while usually he plays badly, because he saw my face..(Arvind said this) Man! Also, I saw a couple of bumps that said bluey, I love you. actually it was more than just a few, it was the whole page, and I don't know about the rest, but I think there was more..
Ehh.. I don't know what to say to that, I really don't. I think it's SO sweet, but I still don't know if I like him. Aahh! This is really hard.. I honestly wish I was in love with him, you know? What's up with this? It's all weird!

And anyways, I wish too many things, especially concerning my weight.. eh. Every one makes me feel fat. But then, I wish that I could stop eating sweet stuff, but if you know me, and most of you do, you know this is impossible for me.. -_-;
Gosh, this is so, long and personal like.
Eh. Don't judge me, please?
Love!
bluey