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*note: i wrote this at school and am just rewirteing them here*
standing on the front patio of my school. it is dissmisal and everyone is here. people are screaming and laughfing all around me, i cant even hear myself think! i hate my life. i hate myself. my life totally sucks, i try not to act too depressed at school, but at home it just shows. this really doesn't matter because my parents don't seem to notice me unless they are yelling at me or want me to do something for them, for example the last time they asked me what i thought or felt or how my day was, was probaly three years ago.
my mom is late to pick my sister up again, usaly i walk home but my mom was already going to pick my sister up from school anyway, so i decieded to hitch a ride. im freezing my but of out here and im going to have to pretend everything is alright at home because it is my grandpa's birth day.
it so depressing when ereryone around you is happy and you aren't. i just saw the school play, Seuss. it really sucked because almost no one was on key. i feel sick. i hope my mom shows up soon. i wish people didn't hate me. i wish i didn't hate myself. i wish i wasn't me. i wish that everything will be better. my mom's here.