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I feel numb. Mentally drained. Unacquainted with this feeling. I suppose it to be for the best. I can speak my mind better this way and not feel regret or remorse. Not that I should or ever will. I despise this human race and have no respect for anyone or anything, what is the point? Nobody has any for me why bother giving any back? Don't mind me, my bitterness is nothing but me being tired and lack of sleep. Sad when you buy a bottle of vodka and realize you had guzzled down the entire bottle in one day. Wish I had saved it, I need it after a night like that. So. Tired. It makes me angry that I cannot for the life of me sleep right now. I wish I could be somewhere else. This house is nothing but chaos and full of negative tension. The air is getting hard to breath, I feel like the weight of my family is crushing the life out of me. Oh, well. Worse things are happening and I have to audacity to think my problems matter. I'm just rambling now, ******** Xanga why did you have to change. I hate coming on this site, nothing but bad memories and thoughts. Rant, rant, rant blah blah blah ******** this ******** that. Can't wait to leave this ******** town and the vermin that reside in it. For the best. I come back and this place becomes once again a death trap. Nothing but drama. So done. Bye.