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DISCLAIMER: I do not own Slayers, I would like to, but I don't.....I admit this and I have learned to go on with my life...(sort of) ....SO DON'T SUE ME!

-It's based on the song (by the same name) by The Cranberries.

NOTE: I decided to be stupid and write this in a very strange way. Not only is it from Lina's point-of-view, but it's her thoughts, like she's just thinking. So therefore, there is no real detail to what goes on outside her head, you hear what she thinks and that's IT! You'll understand better once you've read it...

EVERYTHING I SAID

For the past few days my travels have been pretty lonely. Oh, for those of you who are wondering where my jellyfish-brin companion went, he's still here... well, kind-of. I guess you can say we just haven't been talking lately. Why you ask? Good question. I've even been goo lately! I only blew up that ONE town... it was a small one... barns and pastures mostly... IT WAS AN ACCIDENT OK! Jeez... don't blame me if a town just happens to get into the way of a Dragon Slave... it should know better in the first place! Well, anyway, me and Gourry DID get into a bit of a 'tift' after that. He said that it wasn't necessary... I thought otherwise... I mean, come on, there was no way I was going to pay to sleep in a lousy barn for a night! Ok, so maybe our little 'tift' grew into more of a.... heated arguement. And when I say 'heated'... I mean that literally. There was talk od maybe heding our separate ways... as soon as it was mentioned, we both got pretty quiet. I wonder why? Anyway, we haven't really spoken since then. Again I point out, that was several days ago. So... now I'm even lonelier than I would be if I was by myself. Not to mention slightly confused. Damn! Why do I have to be so stupid!

It makes me lonely
It makes me very lonely
When I see you here, waitin' on

Truth is...I guess I kind of miss talking to him. Well, I traveled alone for a long time before I met him, I can certainly do it again! Huh, if I get too bored, I could always find Naga to beat up... but... it's not the same...It's so hard seeing him day after day and not being able to say anything to him. What happened? Everything use to be fine... I didn't use to care this much one way or the other... It's tireing. Part of me knows that it would be best for us to part company at the next town, but... the other part of me just can't stand the thought of being away from him. What's the matter with me!

It makes me tired
It makes me very tired
And inside of me, lingers on

I wonder how he feels about all of this... I can't tell... his face is completly expresionless. Does he want to leave? It doesn't matter! It's best if he does! I work better on my own anyway! But... really, is that true? Aahhh! I wish he would just say something!

But you have your heart, oh
Don't believe it, and you'll find it, waitin' on

Everything I said to him... heh... for a sorcery genius like myself, I can sure be stupid sometimes. If only I had said everything I said in my head instead of what my notorious fiery-temper said. Yeah, if that, makes sense! No! None of this does! What I mean is... I wish I could've told him everything I meant to say... but i can't tell him that! I can't tell ANYONE that! I'm Lina Inverse for crying out loud!

Everything I said, oh, well I meant it
And inside my head, holdin' on

Aahh! I can't take this anymore! I can't just sit here and think these stupid thoughts! I'm not good at this kind of thing... the only things I can do is eat and blow things up! That's it! There must be bandits somewhere around here for me to unleash my rage and confusion on! Blowing up bandits always makes me feel better! Now to just slip away without wakeing Gourry...

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Finally! A bandit hangout! Wow, they actually look semi-tough, how unusual. Heh, this should be fun!

"Fireball!"

Heh, uh oh...I think I made them mad! Oh goodie! this is great, I feel better already! Wait... what's that? those aren't ordinary bandits... they're sorcerers! Damn! Flare Arrows?!

"Ray Wing!"

Yeah! I dodged them! More of them?! There's too many! Oww! This isn't good!
"Ok, somebody's gonna pay for that!"

'Cos if I died tonight
Would you hold my hand, no
Would you understand

I was careless, I'm not thinking. A handfull of sorcerers should be a piece of cake! i've taken on countless of mazoku and dark lords... I'm Lina Inverse! the greatest sorceress this damn world has ever seen! But then, it's not like it would really matter if anything happened to me... no one would care... they would just laugh and say that the world was now a safer place. Bo! What am I thinking!? What has gotten into me!? Snap out of it! This isn't me!

"Mega Explosion Surround!" Yeah, got 'em!

And if I lived in spite
Would you still be here, no
Would you disappear

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Ow, stupid healing spell doesn't work fast enough. Crap! He's awake! Now what am I going to do?!

"Lina, what were you just doing? Hey, are you hurt? Come here, let me see."

Surely must be you
Surely must be you
But I don't make you lonely

"I'm fine, Gourry, I've already cast a healing spell." I can still see the worry in his eyes, despite my attempt to reassure him of my well-being, as he looks at my wounds. Somehow, that is making me smile. "So... does this mean you're finally speaking to me again?" I find myself asking, rather hopefully.

"Well, I was thinking about it, and since I don't even remember why we weren't speaking in the first place..."

I found myself laughing at his stupidity.

I'll get over you
I'll get over you
But I don't make you lonely

"I do remember one thing though."

"What's that, Gourry?"

"I remember someone mentioning that we stop traveling together..."

"Oh, yeah... that."

"Do we really have to, Lina? I mean... someone has to keep you from destroying the world..." I glared at him for a split second before my smile returned. He's right... there's no telling what'd I do if someone wasn't around to straighten me out from time to time. I doubt it would be anything as durastic as THAT but...

"Are you kidding me!? I'm not leaving you alone until I get that sword!"

"But Lina, this sword has been in my family for..."

"Yeah, yeah, generations... I know, I know..." the silence that now passed between us was much better than the silence earlier. It was no longer tense and full of everything we did and did not say... instead it had been replaced with a silent understanding of everything we meant to say.

"Hey, Lina..."

"Hmm?"

"Thank you."

"Your welcome, Gourry..."

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Yay! Second Songfic posted! Hoped you liked! Please comment! Here's the song lyrics...

EVERYTHING I SAID-BY THE CRANBERRIES

It makes me lonely
It makes me very lonely
When I see you here, waitin' on

It makes me tired
It makes me very tired
And inside of me, lingers on

But you have your heart, oh
Don't believe it, and you'll find it, waitin' on

Everything I said, oh, well I meant it
And inside my head, holdin' on

'Cos if I died tonight
Would you hold my hand, no
Would you understand

And if I lived in spite
Would you still be here, no
Would you disappear

Surely must be you
Surely must be you
But I don't make you lonely

I'll get over you
I'll get over you
But I don't make you lonely