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I AM SO FREAKEN UP SET RIGHT NOW....SOMEONE WHOM KNOWS A BIT ABOUT MY PAST IS IS NOT ALLOWING ME TO ENJOY MY FUTURE. WHAT I MEAN BY THAT IS: I DID RUN A BACKGROUND CHECK, IT CAME OUT CLEAN. HE HAS COME OVER WHILE I AM SLEEPING, ONLY TO SNEAK-A PEAK AT MY BODY WHILE I AM SLEEPING, BUT THIS TYPE OF STUFF WAKES ME UP, AND THE WORST THING IS THAT I KEEP TELLING MY FAMILY MEMBER TO STOP LETTING HIM IN, SO SHE DONT LISTEN, AND WHEN SHE GOES INTO HER ROOM, HE DOES IT. I AM A VICTIM OF SEX ABUSE, AND HE KNOWS THIS, AND HE WONT STOP. (THATS THE ONLY TIME HE DOES THIS), IS WHEN I AM ASLEEP.
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WE HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE IN FEBUARY. I WISH WE HAD THE MONEY TO GO NOW, BUT WE PUT IT ALL IN XMAS, AND A VEHICLE. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying
PEOPLE JUST DONT UNDERSTAND, NO MATTER HOW MANY FREAKING TIMES I EXPLAIN THAT I DONT LIKE PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE, IN MY ROOM LOOKING AT ME, WHILE I AM ASLEEP!
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY PERVERTS IN THE WORLD? IT HAS COME TO MY DECISION TO NEVER HAVE SEX IN MY LIFE BECAUSE OF IT BEING TAKEN FROM ME, AND ME NOT HAVING A CHILDHOOD. I DONT EVEN HAVE PARENTS. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying I JUST WANT TO HURT HIM SO BAD. EVERYONE THINKS HE IS A GOOD PERSON, BECAUSE HE IS NICE AND DOES ALOT FOR PEOPLE, BUT THEY DONT KNOW HIS DARK UNDERLYING THOUGHTS.SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME! I CANT HANDLE THIS TORMENT ANY LONGER.......... sweatdrop sweatdrop sweatdrop eek rolleyes gonk stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed