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I dont know what to do anymore. I don't think she even wants to be with me. It's not like I can stop feeling the way I do ive tried....I feel like Im just wasting my time that she is just going to choose someone else anyway. Depression kicks in because I feel like its my fault that im to clingy or that i try to talk to much or something else thats my fault I fear that Im going to be alone I know that Im going to be alone and that she is going to be mistreated...or worse happy with someone else.... I want her happy but part of me wants me happy and I feel torn..... I want to die so she can be free but I want to live to be with her.....even though I never will be ...... distance you are nothing to me but a major thing to everyone else My heart is just a tool that tells me that I am to feel the way I am while my emotions are a weapon used to harm me little by little every single day. In a perfect world I would have her. Do I have to earn her in this one? do I have to prove my love? or am I just wasting everyones time because she has already decided to not love me the way I love her.