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OMFG i've never thought in a million years that living an adult life would be this bad. as abused child i had better strategies, tactics to survive from my abusive foster family. i thought i had no life back then. boy i was WRONG. COMPLETELY wrong. even though i had the i hate what she does fan base, i also i had my friends. here and now i'm MORE lonelier, and MORE stressful then i ever was before. i am looking for a job for child care. none. trying to work at splish splash....can't do that i need a car. i have A LOT of child stories. not only that i can write them from the top of my head. still looking for a publisher and nothing. if i had to relive as an abused girl i so would. right now writing in this journal is doing a lot for me. some how i'm a lot more calmer then before. i need a car to get to my dream job of this summer. my ultimate goal is to be successful with a degree. try to buy my own things like a house, a car(vw green or royal blue), and do whatever my little heart desires. but for now. all i can do is daydream. i really feel like crying. i'm ony holding back my tears.