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See I am always wondering and asking questions. I have always been insecure and weak in a way. I was a popular kid back in my old neighborhood but I was also picked on the most and it didn't make sense. Everyone depended on me and yet they made me feel like trash. There was no point. I have had people tel me to go kill myself and I was suicidal for years. I don't fight or anything but I do get aggressive and lose my temper. I know I COULD beat the s**t out of someone but something is always holding me back and making me scared and burst to tears. I hate that part of me. If I didn't have that part of me I'd be more confident and I wouldn't have any real problems. So I thought... I have seen girls who take on the mentality that I want and I see how ******** up they become... I don't want people to be scared of me anymore, I don't want guys to keep using me and I don't want to be in trouble anymore. I always felt alone. Always feeling alone because I never talked about my problems. I tried to do everything myself and fix everything but I failed miserably. Now I have a family to always help me rise when I fall and help me stand my ground. I know this all seems like jiberish to the audience reading this now but... My heart and mind are twisted troubled places. You couldn't possibly be able to decode what's going on unless you were apart of me or my family. No one should be taken for granted and judged on pitty traits they have. I love all and accept as many as I can. I do not judge one's ways but merely go about what I wish now. I can't tell you how to live your life so don't tell me how to live mine. So many things I could say but so little time....
See I am always wondering and asking questions. I have always been insecure and weak in a way. I was a popular kid back in my old neighborhood but I was also picked on the most and it didn't make sense. Everyone depended on me and yet they made me feel like trash. There was no point. I have had people tel me to go kill myself and I was suicidal for years. I don't fight or anything but I do get aggressive and lose my temper. I know I COULD beat the s**t out of someone but something is always holding me back and making me scared and burst to tears. I hate that part of me. If I didn't have that part of me I'd be more confident and I wouldn't have any real problems. So I thought... I have seen girls who take on the mentality that I want and I see how ******** up they become... I don't want people to be scared of me anymore, I don't want guys to keep using me and I don't want to be in trouble anymore. I always felt alone. Always feeling alone because I never talked about my problems. I tried to do everything myself and fix everything but I failed miserably. Now I have a family to always help me rise when I fall and help me stand my ground. I know this all seems like jiberish to the audience reading this now but... My heart and mind are twisted troubled places. You couldn't possibly be able to decode what's going on unless you were apart of me or my family. No one should be taken for granted and judged on pitty traits they have. I love all and accept as many as I can. I do not judge one's ways but merely go about what I wish now. I can't tell you how to live your life so don't tell me how to live mine. So many things I could say but so little time....
Where does a Rose like me belong?
