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I can smile for you and pretend I'm ok...

Do you want me to make you laugh?

I can do that..

But, I'm not alive anymore..

My body's here and moving but, only because I force it to...

I don't feel alive...

My body could break and I wouldn't know...

My spirit is gone leaving me to linger a little while longer...

It hurts me to look at you...

It hurts me to think of you...

I want to forget you and my regret...

This pain is heavy and it weighs me down..

When I hear you speak it burns my ears...

Why do I feel this way?

What can I do?

Should I forget you ever existed?

Should I try to get you out of my head?

There's a hole in my heart now...

And it makes me feel empty and hollow..

But, soon I'll be gone and the pain will fade away...

But, your memory won't..

You'll still be in my head...

And that hole will never heal...

The scar will always be there...

You put it there...

But, maybe one day someone will take it away...

'Maybe one day'?

I can only hope.....

One day it won't hurt....

And I can look at my memories of you...

They won't hurt me anymore...

I want to believe that.....

With all my heart...