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Yeah, I suck.
I have sixteen PMs to answer (as of this entry being made), around six or seven emails that needed to be answered last week, a handful of threads I have let fall to the side...
Yeah. I suck. gonk
I am sure if you are reading this I owe you some kind of reply- and I am beyond sorry for having made you wait this long and in having to offer up the news that it will be, at best, a couple more days before I can sit down and start getting out replies. I have work and a few other things coming up in the days ahead that require my attention; so again I find myself begging forgiveness and understanding, as well as patience and whatever good vibe/emotion that this lowly spaz can perhaps have a little bit of.
I find myself having to stress this over and over (and have had to stress this for years now)- but still, it bears repeating over and over and over:
I am never ignoring anyone, nor have I ever forgotten anyone, or their replies that I owe them, or the posts that I need to have done, or the PMs that I have not yet answered. It never has been/never will be a matter of my ignoring anyone; it has never been anything personal- if I have ever given anyone this feeling then I am sorry. Just because I am slow in answering anything, be it a comment or a thread or a PM, it has been and never will be anything personal- it is called poor time management, a full and over-flowing list of commitments, a ton of things going on and right as I think I am getting a little ahead of things- OH, LOOK. SOMETHING ELSE.
I made the mistake a while back of trying to get some stuff going, thinking at the time that things were settling down and that- well, just suffice it to say that I was very wrong. Things are not calming down. They have done the exact opposite of slowing down and becoming manageable. sweatdrop I have done nothing but curse things, it seems. I want the calm and stability that I once thought that I had but it is well and truly gone. That's one of the main things I have come to finally realize these past few days. Just when I idiotically think that things are going to settle down...
So no more thinking that. No more Miss Nice Aries- to hell with that! >.< Waiting around for things to calm down and settle enough so that I can maybe get a page here and a page there has cause significant damage on a great many levels. I am just now learning that.
And Strawberry- I well and truly owe you more of an apology then I owe anyone else anything. You are getting and have gotten for a very, very long time the majority of the blow-back off of...well, everything. I know I have not been very much "good" or "nice" or even easy to be around lately...and I am so, so sorry for that. You have held on and been patient and kind with me when everyone else is being the exact opposite and while I tried to hold my tongue and temper with the world I was taking it out on you. That's not fair.
These past few days have been an eye-opener for me. In more ways then one life has held up a mirror to me and asked me if I liked what I saw- and the answer is no. No, I do not. Now is there going to be time to change things?
I have no idea about that. All I know is that I am going to try.
The positive estimate of when I can and will be back online is Thursday afternoon, after I get out of work and can pull my head out of my a** enough to try to get back into the groove of things on here. That means that PMs will be slow, but that hopefully by midnight or around early Friday morning I can get all your replies out. It's not a matter of my not wanting to, nor is it anything personal; I guess I should have stressed it more to people when we started RPs that I have a lot of things going on...but I had no idea, and for the most part I was ignorant of all the things that would be soon happening.
So- if all goes well, in about forty-eight hours I should have blasted a great many Inbox and threads with my green font. At this point I can do nothing but hope you guys can forgive me, or at the very least just know it is nothing personal. gonk
I read something today that made me laugh; while it might be morbid to some it is still so very true. After reading it all I could think was "Amen."
Why take life so seriously? It's not like you are going to make it out alive.
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