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SO this is twice that I've written today... but I'm abit depressed. I feel like just yelling into the open air, screaming until my voice is gone, tearing myself apart and rebuilding myself as a person that would be everything he wants and would love. I can't expect him to change for me and I know that.. but I can't change myself anymore than I already have. I keep wondering what our lives would be like if we'd never met... maybe he'd be less stressed out... and maybe I'd have actually been able to pull through on my own. I might have left by now... but he was the reason I wanted to leave. What woould I hav egrown to be withot him? What minor difference would it have made in his life if I'd actualltybeen gone by the time he came back?
I wonder to much. sweatdrop