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last week i went to this stupid dance and i was finaly kissed by the boy ive been in love with fro like 3 years i cant believe it and because of another guy i feel horrible i dont know what to do im very lost and it hurts i miss when things were so simple but now im so torn because i ache for his touch and its with in grasp but i cant even reach for it with out my head screaming at me not to and now i dont know what the hell to do. My old friend is freaking out out now and hes trying to protect me and i know he is and now i dont know where to go from here. The boy is takig me to a movie this Friday i really want to go but im im afraid so i might cancle or i may just go and hope i make good judgements and all or i might have some friends go with i honestly i hate to say it but i hope he holds me close i miss his touch, the way he tasted, rolleyes the way he thinks no matter wat im doing he thinks im perfect he makes me feel whole again and the fact that i tingle at just the thought of his touch i know im ready for something more nad now i think it may happen there arent going to be a parents this friday now that he can drive i dont know i kind of hope for him to............ ya know whta i have to go. :cry