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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???? I AM BEING SUCH A BISH FOR NO REASON!!! D: Okay, at lunch on Friday, I start having a muscle twitch for no reason [when I twitch theres normally a reason.] Jb was just talking and I start to freak out. I start wanting to YELL and SCREAM at him for no reason. I was really scared. I thought I was. I had to 'go to the bathroom' just to cool down. Then I come back and Jb -of all people- asked whats wrong. I don't know if he knows about my twitch, or if it was that obvious. So I lie and say nothing. That makes me more frustrated that I couldn't tell him that I was freaking out because of him [I know it was because of him, I just don't know why I would want to (I can kinda control them, but I usually think about it, and then theres so stopping it.)] I was about to go to another table. But then I would have to explain it to one of them, and I really didn't want to. I would love to have explained it to Shayne, but I think I bore him with my Jb crap, and I hate talking to Kelsi about it. I could've told Monica, but she really wouldn't have cared. Yea... I wasn't to happy. But my birthday party was that day, and I had a lot of fun.